Musical Healing

One of the many gifts I have received from meeting my dad and his side of the family is being able to understand where my love of music came from.
I have always loved music and singing despite being told repeatedly that I couldn't sing well.
My whole family on my dads side are musicians and most of them compose their own music and lyrics. This includes the women as well. My grandma was a singer and guitar player and she helped to teach my dad as he was growing up.
My dad has been helping me and encouraging me with my love of music and it has really been so healing and has opened up a whole new world for me.
I discovered that I can sing if I sing my own songs. Trying to copy other people's voices and rhythms result in my failure. I can sing my own songs and play my own music!
The music you listen to has great power and it can even change the structure of your dna. Look this up sometime if it interests you, there are many articles and videos.

I'm back to talk more about healing because for me this is my lifelong responsibility.
I recently have been participating in the Daniel Fast from the bible. This of course is not the first time I have abstained from meats but I have had a rough time for a variety of reasons. The main reason I struggle is because I am a food addict and I have sustained my life through ingesting anything that my mind and body crave.  My body has become accustomed to enjoying the flesh of animals whenever I want.
I dont believe that we shouldn't eat meat however, I strongly disapprove of the way animals are treated. They are suffering in this sick system that has been created and I don't agree with it.
I continue to try to rid myself  of the need to ingest animals who have suffered and lived in misery their whole lives.
I do value my own life of course but I do not believe that these animals are here just to satisfy me.
With knowledge comes responsibility and I just can't keep supporting this type of cruelty.
This video is just one example of how sick our society is.  Yes, turkeys are difficult and they will fight for their lives (anything breathing does) but it does not mean that they or any other animal should have to endure this nonsense.

Remembering

When I was a child I had a family friend whom I called Aunt Ruth. I was thinking about her today :)
She was blessed with the ability to grow the most beautiful, fragrant, velvety roses.
On my birthday she would present me with one of her finest, largest, red roses. I always looked forward to receiving one, it made me happy and always made me feel so special!
Not everyone got a rose like that, let me tell you. She didn't give them away to everyone.
Also, I have yet to find roses in the store like her homegrown beauties. You can't find a rose like that in the store.
I am so grateful to have this memory. Wow, I was honored with the best of the best :)

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Deep

That Feeling

That feeling that comes over me when I realize just how twisted and confused my mind has been about certain things!
When my mind is twisted and distorted my behaviors are obviously going to show it.
Tell me how I have been able to open up in the past to share my body sexually with someone when I was not even able to do natural human activities around them comfortably?
If I am not able to poop with you in the house or pass gas or burp when I need to why would I think it is ok to have sex with you?
Sex is the same as any of these other things that we simply need to do is it not? Sex is simply a need that the body has, a natural function.
It is society's stupidity that has twisted it into something more, something dirty or something to be obsessed about.
From now on I am only going to open up sexually to someone with whom I am able to be completely human with.
If I can't burp around you, if I can't bleed once a month comfortably around you then I sure as heck don't need to be sticking my tongue in your mouth.
Oh and this one is huge...if I can't sleep when you are around me ir in my environment lol then there is absolutely no sane reason for me to be messing with you.
These hang ups are my problems and I am taking responsibility for them as of today.
It's all or nothing darlin :)

Oh How I Love This